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Writer

you go through the playground
listening to embellish words
recalling your life
like a card collection
without caption

when will you learn 
 that you can’t live
 as if you were writing your life?

 

attraversi il parco giochi,
ascoltando il suono impreziosito di parole
ripercorri la tua vita
come un album di figurine senza didascalie.

quando imparerai che non si può decidere della propria vita come se la si stesse scrivendo?

© Batsceba Hardy

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realismo immaginario - imaginary realism

 

" Ci sono un paio di aspetti che trovo molto interessanti nelle tue storie: l'istintività con la quale i personaggi tendono a vivere le loro passioni e pulsioni sessuali, senza farsi troppi problemi, e la sicurezza e determinazione con la quale vengono compiute alcune scelte e messe in atto delle azioni tutt'altro che semplici... Insomma, gente che evidentemente non teme possibili rimorsi, o comunque capace di compiere gesti estremi con lucida volontà."
- un lettore del destino

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"A mio avviso sono vari libri, tutti molto ben pensati e scritti, capaci di integrarsi pienamente tra loro …C’è un bildungroman degno, per delicatezza di tono e per la convinta adesione, della grande tradizione … le parti parigine sono davvero benedette dall'indescrivibile "dolce ala della giovinezza" …C'è un "romanzo di montagna" nella scia del sommo Stifter o della nostra Zangrandi …C'è lo sviluppo finale, reso con grazia e delicatezza…. Insomma un risultato maturo e significativo, espresso nelle varie lingue che i testi diversi richiedevano, e con una complessiva atmosfera, come di Kairos ineluttabile, che collega poi molto il libro ai nostri tempi. … Infine lo stile, alieno da qualsiasi "ruffianismo"..."

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Un romanzo sentimentale filosofico di formazione che mescola anime giapponesi e affinità elettive...

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Now, I fly when I’m awake

And the ceiling overhead opens up to let me go

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as a child I had a recurrent dream, I dreamt of flying.
I didn’t use my hands like wings, though. I just crossed the sky like Superman.
I got out of the window to get away from the “thieves” and… flew. No falling down.
Now, I fly when I’m awake.
And the ceiling overhead opens up to let me go

 

 

da bambina sognavo spesso di volare.
non muovevo le mani, no. ma come superman attraversavo il cielo.
pluf fuori dalla finestra scappando dai “ladri”.
e invece di cadere volavo via.
ora volo da sveglia.
e il soffitto si apre sopra di me lasciandomi andare

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full void

Today, sitting with my legs in the sun, I think there is no difference between void and fullness.
My void is full of white. an empty white. but thick.
Why should I fill in a void which is already complete?
and what is fullness without a void to be filled in. Like concave and convex.
Legs in the sun. The whole and the part. Me and the sun. I’m hot.
where is the heart beating?
I don’t have a heart inside. Because inside I’m empty.
My organs, I don’t know where they’re placed, but not inside me.
full void. What is the difference?



vuoto pieno


oggi seduta con le gambe al sole penso che non c'è alcuna differenza fra vuoto e pieno.
il mio vuoto così pieno di bianco. un bianco vuoto. ma denso.
perché dovrei colmare un vuoto che è già pieno?
e cos'è il pieno senza un vuoto da colmare. come concavo e convesso.
le gambe al sole. il tutto e la parte. io al sole. ho caldo.
dove batte il cuore?
non ho un cuore dentro. perché dentro io sono vuota.
i miei organi non so dove siano dislocati, ma non sono dentro di me.
vuoto pieno. qual è la differenza?
 

[didascalie/captions]

[caption n. endless]

sometimes I forget to use my shield.
I have countless wounds.

 

[didascalia n. infinito]

a volte mi scordo dello scudo.
innumerevoli sono le mie ferite.


[Caption invisibility]
the multitudinous rafts
among the rocks –
and yet the woven net
still doesn’t trap my loneliness.
 

 

[didascalia dell’invisibilità]

una distesa di zattere
fra scogli di sirene
ma la rete intrecciata
non colma la mia solitudine

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[caption n.333333333]

 i was born, in a gravityless format,
in the aquarium they gave me,
coated in the plastic film
from the nearby supermarket

 

[didascalia n.333333333]

 sono nata in un format
senza gravità
nell'acquario che mi hanno regalato
rivestita della pellicola di plastica
del supermarket accanto

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My language is like the language of angels

incomprehensible to the deaf

is like the blade of a skate on the ice
thin

if you want to speak with me

learn to listen to the empty
to follow a rail
screaming in the subway

 

 

 [didascalia n.3719]

 la mia è come la lingua degli angeli

incomprensibile ai sordi

è come la lama di un pattino sul ghiaccio

sottile

se vuoi parlare con me

impara ad ascoltare il vuoto

a seguire una rotaia

a urlare nella metropolitana


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[Caption n. 00000041]

I sit beside you, 

but on the other side.

I have eyes that don't see in the dark 

but look beyond, through.

I dream with my eyes closed and open

but I don't have the unconscious and the subconscious.

Sometimes I feel like I exist

but i know, I am a ghost.

 

[didascalia n. 00000041]

io siedo accanto sì,
ma dall'altra parte.
io ho occhi che non vedono al buio,
ma guardano oltre, attraverso.
io sogno a occhi chiusi e aperti
ma non ho inconscio né subconscio.
io a volte penso di esistere,
ma lo so, io sono un fantasma.

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[caption n. seven thousand]

my scraped knuckles
taught me
I don't have to knock
on a closed door

 

[didascalia n. settemila]

 ho imparato
le nocche scorticate
che non si bussa
alle porte chiuse

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[caption of Friendship]

Don’t open your heart
they will empty it
again.
And again
they will throw its beat
in the river

 

[didascalia dell'amicizia]

Non aprire il tuo cuore
lo svuoteranno
ancora.
E ancora
butteranno il suo battito
nel fiume

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[caption to memories]

don't open the box of secrets
they would fly away

 

[didascalia ai ricordi]

non aprire la scatola dei segreti
volerebbero via

 

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[Caption without  object]

my diversity has no name
don't define it or call it
my diversity is an oasis
don't turn it into a ghetto

 

[didascalia senza oggetto]

la mia diversità non ha nome
non definitela né chiamatela
la mia diversità è un oasi
non trasformatela in un ghetto

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[Caption of the Dream]


I spend a third of my life in a dimension which is only mine,
where no one can reach me.
Why should I question myself about the origins of the Universe,
when each night I open a door into the Unknown?


[Didascalia del Sogno]


Io passo un terzo della mia vita in una dimensione solo mia,
dove nessuno può raggiungermi.
Perché dovrei interrogarmi sulle origini dell'Universo,
quando ogni notte apro una porta sull'ignoto?
 

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[Caption of the soul]

i have been an eagle
i remember the pain of my prey in my talons
a warrior on horseback
i remember the smell of wind in mane
a monk of Skelling
i remember the saltiness on tunic
i don't know
if I want to be what I'm
now

 

[didascalia dell'anima]

sono stata un'aquila
ricordo il dolore della mia preda fra gli artigli
un guerriero a cavallo
ricordo l'odore del vento nella criniera
un monaco delle Skelling
ricordo la salsedine sulla tunica
non so
se voglio essere quello che sono
adesso

Lady Solitude by Hardy

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INVISIBLE

Today I wore my " robert redford" jacket, the "richard gere" gait and the "steve mcqueen" smile, and so, listening to Sophia, I became invisible

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[Void]

Void is white, speckled as Berlin's sky.
reassuring as the embrace of fog on a cold morning.
It runs inside us as the clouds carried by the wind.
Void is us, back in front in the middle.
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[Caption of silence]

Your silence strikes me as a blow
that sense of absence
but it is mine.
I think of your pain
and in my own way I pray for you.
I wish you serenity
and I walk in silence

 

[didascalia del silenzio]

il tuo silenzio mi colpisce un po'
quel senso di mancanza
ma è mio.
penso al tuo dolore
e a modo mio prego per te.
ti auguro serenità
e mi incammino nel silenzio

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[Caption of farewell]

so I say goodbye
in my bag
I take away
your sadness

 

[didascalia dell'addio]

così io dico addio:
nella mia borsa
porto via
la tua tristezza

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[caption of the I]

I am a dream,
a dream caught in a dreamcatcher.
And when the web breaks,
you shall not find me.

 


[didascalia dell'Io]   

                                                                                            
Io sono un sogno,
un sogno intrappolato in un acchiappasogni.
E quando la rete si spezzerà,
non potrai più trovarmi
 

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[poetica]


lo so
la mia è una tristezza sorridente,
ricopre come un manto di neve
e stupisce come il volto della luna.

[poetics]


I know
My sadness is a smiling one
It covers like a blanket of snow
And astonishes like the face of the moon.
 

 

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[what's the point ?]

And what's the point in this?
a part of the world lives in a huge circus.  
where everyone has to perform
participate
entertain and be entertained
 
the other side of the world lives in the no man's land
where you can just try to survive
or flee.

 

[che senso ha?]

 

e che senso ha?

una parte del mondo abita in un immenso circo.

dove tutti devono esibirsi

partecipare

divertire e divertirsi

 

l'altra parte del mondo abita nella terra di nessuno


dove si può solo cercare di sopravvivere

o fuggire.

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[question ...]


They asked me if I'm happy.
I answered that today I am less happy than yesterday.
now I know I'm useless
 

 

[domanda ...]

mi hanno chiesto se sono felice.
ho risposto che oggi lo sono meno di ieri.
oggi so di essere inutile

 

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[Question 010]

I wonder
how Human Thought will be
when no God will save us
and Science will have definitely lost its confidence.
We will be others.
B.H.


[domanda 010]

mi chiedo
come sarà il pensiero umano
quando nessun dio ci salverà
e la scienza avrà perso definitivamente le sue certezze.
saremo altri.
B.H.

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O

 IO sono tondo
liscio e sembro irsuto
opaco e trasparente
refrattario ma le graffiature sono incisioni sottopelle
e invisibili a chi non ha occhi

 

O

I am round
smooth and seem shaggy
opaque and transparent
refractory but scratches are incisions in the skin,
and invisible to those who don't have eyes

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[vorrei vivere in un libro]

vorrei odorare di inchiostro nero
e camminare fra le righe.
vorrei una sofferenza letteraria
senza un corpo da accudire.
vorrei potermi riporre sul comodino
e sognare che sto vivendo.
non importa come finisce.

[I would like to live in a book]

I would smell of black ink
and walk between the lines.
I would like a literary suffering
without a body to look after.
I wish I could put myself on the nightstand
and dream that I'm living.
no matter how it ends.

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[away]
when I'm sad,
don't grow sad.
my sadness flies away with the wind.
but when I'm happy,
don't be happy.
my happiness slips away with the rain.

[via]
quando sono triste,
non rattristarti.
la mia tristezza se la porta via il vento.
ma quando sono allegra,
non rallegrarti.
la mia allegria scivola via con la pioggia.

 

 

[wings]

And when the last feather
they will have plucked from me,
how will I fly away?

[Ali]

E quando anche l'ultima piuma
mi avranno strappato,
come potrò volare via?

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I have an imaginary friend
he knows all my secrets
he understands all my secrets
he is my secret

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[mi chiedo]
ogni giorno al risveglio mi chiedo:
come possono essere così pochi i morti?
come possono esserci così pochi pazzi?
ogni notte chiudo gli occhi senza risposta.


[I wonder]
every day when I wake up I wonder:
how come the dead are so few?
how can there be so few crazy ones?
every night I close my eyes with no answer

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[People]
a liquid plate
opaque.
the repeat button entered:
but why can't I find the off button?

[la Gente]
una lastra liquida
opaca.
il tasto repeat inserito:
ma perché non trovo il tasto off

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[Life]
life does not run like a river to a sea.
life is the sea, with its never ending tides

[la Vita]
la vita non scorre come un fiume verso un mare.
la vita è il mare, con le sue maree perenni.

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Nulla è.

Sono nata vecchia, 
con i ricordi del mondo come compagni di gioco.
Consapevole della fine.
Attraverso la vita,
come un essere senza età.
In compagnia della mia solitudine colorata.

 

Nothing is.

I was born old,
with the memories of the world as playmates.
Aware of the end.
I through life,
as a being without age.
In the company of my solitude colorful solitude.

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Nexus

but when the Brain becomes a Place,
where You walk with all of your Voices,
where Colors and Smells mingle in Time
and Memories as clouds gather and unravel,
where Years are just imaginary numbers,
and You're all of that,
what happens then?

 

Nexus

ma quando il Cervello diventa un Luogo,
dove Tu cammini con tutte le tue Voci,
dove Colori e Odori si mescolano al Tempo
e i Ricordi come nuvole si addensano e sfrangiano,
dove gli Anni sono solo numeri immaginari,
e Tu sei tutto questo,
cosa accade allora?

We're just Zombies

Why all this trouble
when you know your fate
of living dead
won’t be rewarded

Siamo solo Zombies

Perché affannarsi
quando sai che il tuo destino
di morto vivente
é senza premio

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Daedalus

come un giardinere sincero

tramuto il giardino dei desideri

nel  labirinto dei miei pensieri

 

like a candid gardener

I turn the garden of desires

into the labyrinth of my thoughts

 

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One love
by Batsceba Hardy  ®

One Love…

The windscreen wiper was going up and down to the rhythm of the song and the gliding water was singing along with Bono:
One love…
She smiled.
It had been raining for a week, without any interruption. Hundreds of tiny, twin but annoying drops, she thought. The summer season was coming to an end or was it the end of the world? She turned up the volume and started singing along. Her wet hair, clinging to her neck, was her only link with reality. She felt like a fragment of celluloid, a sound track; she felt like being a part of her car. Even her limbs were lost in a boundless space, completely mingled with the seat.
She blinked her eyes at the fog when she saw two headlights which were hurting her. And she caught a glimpse of him, like an apparition. He was there, bare headed, as stiff as a rod in the rain. He looked like a pagan God. One of his fingers was up in the air and his eyes were empty. She left him behind so quickly that she did not have enough time to make a decision. Then, she stopped on the brakes. While she was waiting for him to join her, she looked at him in the rear mirror and she had enough time to think that behind every white young man who’s respectable and good looking there might be a serial killer.
The door burst open and she jumped out the film.
-In American films only. – she whispered.
-How…?- her voice was deep and kind.
-Nothing…- he locked out the rain – on the back seat there’s a pullover which you can use to dry yourself.
-Thank you.- he didn’t say anything else but stretched his legs until his figure was straight.
-Where shall I take you? – she turned. The colour of his eyes was too light. Very common, she thought.
-Wherever you like…
Then, she started the engine and the music restarted. He didn’t even move a muscle.
-I like driving in the rain – she smiled – but I cannot stand the rain.
-Why on earth wasn’t he saying anything? – she thought, beginning to
be afraid.
-When I can, I just jump into my car and I drive without any aim and I feel free… - she revealed – My husband is out of the house all day long – then, she bit her tongue. She didn’t want to be mistaken for the usual, old insignificant woman who’s really unsatisfied and who’s always looking for new love affairs. That man might have been a fugitive, a killer, a member of the Mafia, a lunatic… She imagined that he was grinning and she gripped onto the wheel. That’s it – she thought – as usual, I end up looking a proper fool. Why don’t I just shut up?
-Have you ever thought about going on a world tour? – he abruptly asked.
The tone of his voice was monotonous. This didn’t even sound like a question.
-A world tour? – she had to think about it – driving, yes.. she
stammered.
-I’ve just began… - he admitted and then turned his head and stared at her.
For a split second she didn’t pay attention to the road and she met his eyes. Their colour was really too light.
-You’re not pulling my leg, are you? She didn’t like being teased. She could feel a blush able to control it. Some people event found that fascinating. Goodness knows what her companion might have thought!
The music took her mind off him. Oh, how often she’d dreamt about leaving! Alone, with her contact lenses and her bleaching cream for hairs! But in the end, she’d stayed there among those hills, dreaming to be somewhere else every time she heard somebody speaking English (which was not unusual in Chiantishire).
-I never joke – he said with his monotonous voice and she thought he sounded like one of those Clint Eastwood types.
-I’d like to be funny but I can’t__ - he simply added a few minutes later and she was really surprised. They remained silent.
His foot started beating time together with the wipers. The car wheels seemed to dance on the wet asphalt, like in a cartoon.
I’m really stupid, she thought. The music suddenly stopped. The cassette had finished and the side was changing automatically.
-We haven’t even introduced each other.
During that pause, she felt an urge to speak. Silence was bothering her.
-I don’t like my name. And you?
Bono had already started again to sing but when he realized he had to raise his voice, he just held out his hand and turned down the volume.
Gosh, I can’t believe this is true, she thought. It look like the script of a film directed by Antonioni, that is to say too stupid to be real. But she did answer because she had never really liked her name.
-Sara- she said –my name’s Sara… - and she laughed. –But I’d rather be called ‘Selvaggia’ and pilot an helicopter…
-And why don’t you do it? – he was now on familiar terms with her even if he hadn’t even told the woman his name.
It’s expansive…- she mumbled, though not being positive about the answer.
-It could be an investment – he suggested – and your husband, what does he do.
She didn’t expect the question and decided she wouldn’t answer but then changed her mind.
-The lorry driver – she said, while she was imagining a truck driver: tall, strong, his face reminding us of Nick Nolte when the actor was young.
-And you? – she asked.
-The tramp – he laughed – or you would prefer a robber?
She didn’t say anything and she concentrated on the road. Now, it was pouring.
-If I told you that I’ve just committed a robbery at a petrol station?
-I wouldn’t believe you. – she answered in one go.
-Why?
-You’ve got such a nice voice.- she said. And she didn’t believe him at all.
She got the impression he was smiling.
He started humming and he could sing in tune.
-He’s a vet. – she admitted after a while. Her companion didn’t hear or, as she thought, pretended not to hear because he didn’t want to make her feel awkward.
Anyway, she would have expected him to speak frankly as well but that didn’t happen. The road was empty now. Everybody was having lunch, she thought. And actually, she herself started being hungry.
-What about eating something? – she asked.
-I’d love to, if you pay. - He’d put on unpleasant and almost challenging air. Yes, he was indeed a cheeky penniless man, she thought and she was sorry about that. But this is how I may get rid of him.
-I have to get back to the prison now, my time off is almost over… - she replied. She was using that playful tone she deeply hated.
-If you tell me which direction you’d like to go, I’ll drop you at a trattoria on the way – she was trying hard to be nice.
He shrugged his shoulders and kept the secret for himself. He’s going nowhere, she thought.
Heaven knows whether he’s escaping from something.
-And you? What do you usually do? Do you just wait for him to come back in the evening? – he suddenly asked.
-Oh no! I’ve got my ceramics workshop, I do gardening… hundreds of things – she replied but she felt insulted.
Here am I.
Once again, I look like a proper fool, she thought. But then, she cheered up. Why should she be embarrassed in front of that stranger, sitting there soaked to the skin? She shook her head.
-I didn’t want to be impolite – he was saying – I thought you could understand me… I never feel at ease anywhere. If I stop, I always wait for something to happen… and I don’t want to spend my life waiting – he was the first one to laugh about what he’d just said.
-I bet you’re a student… - she tasted him. She felt she’d known him for ages now.
-You’re wrong… I’m unemployed – he interrupted but picked up the thread straight away – but in some ways you’re right: I’ve just left university, after taking a degree in philosophy before the summer.
-Philosophers and architects ..all crazy. - That’s what my mother used to say and she was right, she thought.
-Look, there is a bar. Are we going to stop by?
-Yes. – he baldly agreed to.
She stepped on the brakes and drove her car to the left, put out the indicator and then turned into the large square. A red sign “Bar-Trattoria da Pino” stood out on the building which looked squat as if the surveyor had forgotten to finish it. She parked her Twingo car under a porch. It was still raining, which was annoying, but none of them thought about finding a shelter, instead they continued walking to the bar. They tried to avoid a lot of puddles without being successful. Her shoes were covered in mud and his trousers were spotted but they were both cheerful.
It was smoky inside the bar. All the customers turned and stared at them.
-Good morning.- she said. Some of them nodded but all of them soon started to think about their own business. She gave them a quick glance. She didn’t know anybody there. I’m lucky, she thought.
The owner, a white-haired man, drew near: he was smiling.
-You could sit over there. – he pointed to a secluded small table. He must have thought they were two sweethearts.
- What you would you like to have?
-Oh, two toasted sandwiches would go, thanks. I’ll have a beer and you?
She felt very excited and cheeky, simply because she’d dared to order something for him as well.
-Some plain water, please… - while the old man was going away, he smiled in such a way that she found him irresistible.
That’s it, she thought, I’ve fallen from a thriller to a romance.
How is it possible that I cannot lead my life without such a rich imagination? I’m in a bar with a nice stranger and I’m ready to make up a fantastic story. Beforehand, he was a killer and now he’s a seducer.
-Have you ever thought of becoming a writer? – he asked, interrupting her thoughts.
-A writer?- she stammered – No… why? - Suddenly, she saw him as an intruder who was rummaging in her mind, so he challenged him with her eyes but she only found a genuine look.
-Because doing so…- he didn’t give her satisfaction. When they sat down, they realized that they were soaking wet and they had water running down their backs.
-Have you forgotten your umbrellas? – the old man asked while he was noisily putting down a tray. As an answer, they laughed and then started eating. The old man left them, without adding a word.
-If you don’t want to tell me where you’re going, at least you can tell me where you come from… - she abruptly asked. She had made a great effort.
-Would I be a stranger if I told you these things?
And the, he touched her hands as if they were on intimate terms. She didn’t draw her hand back. What is important is that he’s here, now, with me. And she suddenly felt different, totally free: she was a stranger, too. And being a stranger, she forgot to go home. They laughed and ordered a coffee. The, he started talking about his wanderings which he compared to the monks’ in Medieval times. He told her about Ireland and the towers they had built to protect themselves against the Vikings.
She thought about Saracen pirates. They even talked about monasteries. She’d always desired to live in a monastery just for a few weeks: it was a way of relaxing. He told her he’ done so in Greece on Mount Athos. She didn’t believe him, but she didn’t show. When they decided to say goodbye to the old man, they were lively talking about faith. He wasn’t a man of faith, nor was she, but the old man was and he was also very trustful. They set out in the rain. She took every single country road, driving here and there, without any aim. She was dancing to the rhythm of the music, while he sang at the top of his voice.
They both ended up chatting and chatting about their childhood. She used to have a beloved teddy bear (and she’d cut his fringe) whereas he had a paper theatre whose characters had been cut out from his old Topolino magazines.
And suddenly, she stopped thinking. She recollected her past and she was talking without listening to her: she was ready to believe everything he told her. At dusk, she took him to a motel. She had simply decided to spend the night with him. The lady at the reception did not ask for any papers. She just wanted some money in advance for the night and the two breakfasts; she then handed the key to them.
-Number eleven and have a good night- she took her leave.
The room was unusually big and there was a sweet violet smell. The, she also switched off her conscience. The following morning, she found herself alone in an unknown bed. First of all, she noticed al the cracks on the wall in front of her. On the pillow, she saw one of those golden bracelets with a blood group identity disc. She thought that was his only belongings and she put it on her wrist. Since it was too big, it slipped on the floor straight away. She tried to tie it to the ankle but it was only a game. She was lying on the bed completely naked, she stood up and raised her leg. She looked into the mirror and decided to keep it. After all, they had the same blood group.
It wasn’t raining any longer. She got into her car and went back home.
Bono had started singing again. She didn’t have to make up any excuse because no-one was there waiting for her and when she listened to the answering machine, she even fount out that her husband had been out all night long.
A cow had had a difficult delivery and on his way back home, the vet’s van got stuck in the mud. Luckily, some friends of his had invited him to spend the night at their farm. The following morning, the break-down van would arrive and in the evening he would finally manage to go home. He would try top give her a buzz later, as the message on the answering machine said.
And the tone of his voice was as sweet as usual. So, she totally lost her memory and forgot everything about the hitchhiker.
No-one knows how, but the following week she also lost her U2 cassette.
Her husband gave her as a present a U2 CD but she refused to listen to it again.
After one month, she realized she was expecting a baby.
-That’s impossible!- she said to the gynaecologist who was staring and smiling at her.
-What?- she was getting angry. –You’re never satisfied! You’ve always wanted a baby and now you’re complaining whereas you should be mad with joy!- she then became more sympathetic and reassuring. The gynaecologist’s eyes met hers while she was crossing her hands on the desk.
-Sometimes it happens, just like that, out of the blue. When there are no physical impediments but only mental block, like in your case. You know, you cannot give orders to the mind… - By what she’d just said, she intended to tell her a secret.
She thought it wouldn’t be nice to burst into laughter and she pretended to listen carefully to all the pieces of advice for an easy pregnancy.
When she left the gynaecologist’s, she only remembered that for the first three months, you’d better not ride a bicycle and she finally burst into laughter. That morning, she went back home and she deeply felt she was not alone. First thing, she dubbed her U2 CD on a cassette and then got into her car and went for a short drive, while listening the music.
When she went back home, she called her husband on his mobile phone and since she’d never done that before, she felt particularly excited.
-What’s wrong? – he asked, fearing that something dreadful had happened: his wife had never called him on his mobile phone before.
-Something really nice… I’m expecting a baby. – She laughed; she was pleased and proud at the same time but she was also aware she was lying.
 

Her husband cancelled all his appointments and went home immediately. He shyly stopped on the doorstep, then showed a rose he’d been hiding behind his back. He tenderly hugged his wife while still holding the rose in his hand: he didn’t even think he might prick himself. Then, he invited her out for lunch.
-Let’s celebrate! – he said.
And they kept on celebrating for nine long months. During the winter, it never rained, not even once; in February only, it snowed for a whole week. And apart from that week, she used to go for “her usual short drive” (as her husband described it) every morning. They met a lunch time and they happily had lunch together. In the afternoon, she used to have a rest, waiting for her husband to come back. Sometimes, he invited some friends over for dinner; they then played poker or watched a videocassette.
Sometimes, just the two of them relaxed on the lounge sofa, reading a book. Her husband took her by the hand and off they went to their bedroom. At night, she used to have beautiful ”serial” dreams and in each one of them she was becoming younger and younger: a university student, a teenager and a child…
But she never went back into her mother’s womb as a fiend of hers who is a psychiatrist had once said. She also had an unpleasant dream: she was becoming smaller and smaller, like a Lilliputian, and she was in the dock. Her relatives, sitting on high stools, were the judges. The dead, her mother for example, were back to Earth just to try her: they were pointing at her and she was charged with forgery. That was her only nightmare but she soon forgot everything about it. When she was in her seventh month, she had her Twingo car carefully cleaned(even the inside) at a car-wash. She drove back home so fast that she risked a fine for exceeding the speed limit. She parked her car in the garage and gave up using it until her delivery.
She gave birth on the very day the gynaecologist had suggested according the “magic circle”.
-The second of June – she’d said, after turning that magic circle round in her hands. And on the second of June she was breastfeeding that tiny little baby: he was red-haired.
-He must look like your relatives –these were the word the words of her mother-in-law who’d just arrived from Milan for the delivery.
-I can’t think of anybody in my family who’s red-haired - she was expecting a reply which didn’t come.
Luckily, she left for Milano as soon as she was discharged from hospital.
-Call me if you need my help! – she was shouting from the train window.
But the thereof them knew that wouldn’t happen.
On a rainy morning, when the baby was three months old, she took her Twingo car out of the garage and had him sitting in the back. Then, she put on the U2 cassette and started the engine.
-One Love – Bono began singing along with the gliding water. The new-born baby made some noises and smiled. If he’d been able to, he would have sung along, she thought. She was driving fast but she wasn’t in a hurry. She was trying to remember the way, when she saw a red sign an a squat building and she pulled up so suddenly that baby was about to cry. He made grimaces but when he heard his mother’ voice, he cheered up immediately and started making noises again. She manoeuvred her car into a square and then parked under the porch.
She opened her umbrella to protect her baby from the rain and then she went into the bar with a radiant face.
-Good morning. – she said, standing on the doorstep.
The old man was smiling. He recognized her at once and he was not surprised at all. He went towards them, trying to help them.
-He looks like his dad! – he said, while picking the baby up.
-Yes – she proudly said. And she hadn’t told a lie.